Well, I have finally moved away from that hell hole I used to call home. A bit further away from where I wanna be but I'm sooooo happy right now. Hella hella sore from yesterdays move but sooo happy. =3 Anywho, me and Ryan are gonna throw a lil kickback next Saturday mehbe around 6ish so if anyone wants to come, your more then welcome. I'll myspace a few invites but those who are reading this, you know your welcome to come. ;) My reprograming begins now. ^_^

So, me and Ryan are finalizing things and getting out place February 1st next week Sunday. ^o^ Its called Towers at Tropicana Luxury Apartments. Awsome awsome place for only 1005 with lots of space and a dope ass fireplace with large roman tubs and what not. Gonna sign some final paperwork this Saturday and then go looking for a few things while Ryan has the day off. You guys will def. have to stop by. We are gonna throw a lil kickback to break in the new place probably in mid February before we got furniture in and what not. I'm SOOOOOOO MFING EXCITED! *_*

My Grandfather passed away last night sometime around 11p.m. Louisville time "8ish ours" where things proggressed alot faster and harder then anyone had ever imagined. My Father called me 30 agos to inform me of this. Now, I am definetly having a hard time just breathing. My insides hurt like hell and I didn't want to beleive this was going to happen so soon. Regardless of how I feel, I WILL write something about him that will show what a great person he was in my life.

My Grandfather was someone I enjoyed calling on a weekly/bi weekly basis's where alot of my own family barely saw him sometimes regardless of them being no more then 20-30 mins away. We wouldn't have the longest conversations but boy would we have some decent talks. I'll always remember this one conversation where I really made him laugh pretty hard while it was either a slow day at work or it was before my shift I can't remember. He and I had chatted like normal but I made him laugh and what I said to him I can't remember but I'll never forget it.

My Father told me that this man he knew wasn't the same man he knew as a child growing up in his care. Rather a stranger who he grew to love more and more and he did love em before, but just not the same way. He felt that he fought these past 5+years of whatever came in his path to repent for his past. Seeing this, it made sense to me cause many doctors over the years were surprised at how he kept going. Sometimes when we'd talk, he'd tell me that "The good Lord hasn't taken me yet. I must still be alive for a reason.".

I guess this was the reason Grandpa. I never knew you before you changed but I'll always remember you for being the great person you were torwards me. My fondest memory of you and I together will probably always be when I was 5, 6, or 7 where you and Grandma came down for a visit to see us in Florida. You were laying down in my Dads recliner and I went ahead and pull up this blue blanket which isn't that far from my eyes right now. I love Grandpa and I'll miss you. You were the only Grandfather I ever knew of and you made it great. Your with Grandma now and your finally free....

My Father just called me not too long ago which already told me something was wrong since he never calls me this late in general. Turns out, my Grandfather is now not only suffering from an iffection in his lower intestines, but he now has cancer.... He tells me that they won't be able to treat it until he walks again which may never happen and that they may pull the plug on him if the antibiotics aren't doing their job in helping him in 2 weeks for sure. He tells me they are gonna bring him home to for his last days.

So what am I to do? I told my Father which implyed a question saying I can be there in a week or two no problem and be there as long as needed. He tells me that he'd really want me to be there to help carry his casket when it is now certain it seems like its for sure going to happen. I ask him if by me being there will help things so I can either spend the rest of his time remembering him alive or just be there for his funeral....

I'm at a freaking lose for words cause I've lost family before but I've never been this damn attached.... I don't know if I SHOULD be there and spend as much time with him as I can with how things are going now. I mean I FINALLY found a place with Ryan literally today and we got sooo much going on in 2 weeks from now.

I have to ask you guys because some of you are more close to me then alot of others I've met in my past. I call you family. I need to know, would you spend time with someone who'd probably wouldn't remember you off and on, or continue on with your life waiting just from out here till IT happens? God knows I wanna jump the gun and head out there asap but with what I got going on right now and with what my Father tells me, I don't know....

"Barfs" Damn that Ramen House!!!! I ought to mfing go back and sue!!! I'll never have their awsomely delicious msg beef again! I know what it was too! Cause everyone else had ramen and I had ma beef bowl all by my lonesome. I cursed maself! ;o; "Barfs"

Last night was really really fun. Ended the old year off with a bang, and startin anew with this year. Alot good changes are gonna be happening. ;) Again, Happy New Year everyone!

I finally got sick. =P Anyone wanna make out? Rofl. I haven't felt like this since early March when my allergies were acting haywire and I had the flu. =X Anywho, I wish I could make it tonight and its more possible now since Doug switched with me so I'll be home before 8 I hope but I don't want to get anyone sick. ;_;

Also, if no ones doing anything special, me and Felix are doing a lil New Years Eve kickback at Arizona Charlies just like last year minus the crazy dramatic girl so it'll be fun. Lemme know if anyone wants to go. ^_^

BOOOOOOOOOOORING! Bah, I miss Vegas already. Was surprised to find a computer here at my G-pas place. Thank baby J that my aunt needs the internets. I can't wait to be back. ;3; But I am enjoying my time with my Grandfather and ma adorable lil cousin Curina. Shes in my photos on my myspace from a year ago. Grown so much since I last saw here. =3 Anywho, I am gonna nap, then hang with ma Pops and be back tommorow around 9ish pm. Laterz guyz.

I had sooooooooooo much fun tonight "Assholes!" you guys! Its been forever since we all got together like that. I don't remembering laughing as hard as I did playing those games since the first time I met you guys. I wish we could get together like that more often. Thx again for tonight and thx again G-pa for throwing this shin-dig. Nightz.

I lost ma moped key at workz. ;_;

I'll never forget yesterday. Was one of the more greater days I've ever spent with someone in a long time. =)

1. What was the highlight of your week? I saw a cute girl and had a nice chat with her at work. ^o^

2. Whose car were you in last? Felixs

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? when i have a girlfriend or on new years

4. What color shirt are you wearing? gray

5. How long is your hair? shortish

6. Are you good looking? not the best looking, nor am i the worst. i am DYAM good looking! lol, jk.

7. Last movie you watched? If Only

8. Who were you with? me, myself, and i

9. Last thing you ate? tempora battered chicken

10. Last thing you drank? lots and lots of sunny d

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken? forever and a half ago

12. Who came over last? felix

13. Are you happy right now? course i am. gonna hang out for Emis b-day!

14. What did you say last? course?

15. Where is your phone? on my blanket

16. What color are your eyes? brown

17. Are you left-handed? noperz

18. Spell your name without vowels: k?

19. Do you have any pets? just my lil brother

20. Favorite Vacation? okinawa japan!

21. What do you dislike currently? some bully from ma 5th grade

22. What are you listening to? a really loud t.v. from my living room

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? hanging out with ma buds

24. What is your favorite scent? the scent of a beautiful girl..... man i need a gf ;o;

25. Who makes you happiest? my friends

26. What were you doing at midnight last night? hangin at home

27. When is your birthday? 2/20/85

28. Who has the same phone as you? no one cause i am just that cool ;)

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool? back in april i think i was drunk and had to cool down rofl

30. Do you read your horoscope? every so often

31. Where was the last place you bought something? some yummy starburst jellie beans from walgreens

32. How do you feel about your hair right now? i don't like it short cant wait till it grows out again

33. Do you bite your nails? nope

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery? nope

35. Do you have any expensive clothes? not really

36. Myspace or facebook? myspace def

37. How fast have you driven a car? i went down a hill on my moped at 65+

38. Have you ever smoked? never

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school? learning survival stuff back in mr andersons 9th grade

40. Do you have Verizon? nope

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for? kind, caring, and sweet

42. Do you have any hidden talents? yes

43. Favorite Song? i have a ton

44. Do you like to sing at all? when no ones 100 miles around me.... then again i enjoy it when i drink too for some reason

45. Dream Job? becoming an author

46. Where does most of your family live? okinawa, mainland japan, and kentucky

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? i have 2 lil bros

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? nope i make my own

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up? tried falling back asleep

50. Do you drink? lately, quite alot

51. Know any other languages? a lil bit hear and there getting so bored at work, they are teaching me a lil spanish "BA PAS!"

52. Ever write a coded message? when i was lil i think?

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding? nope

54. Do you have any children? noperz

55. Did you take a nap today? nope

56. Who has the same birthday as you? oddly enough, i've known quite a few from back in the day

57. Ever met anyone famous before? not that i can recall

58. Do you want to be famous one day? sure?

59. Any Pet Peeves? a few?

60. Are you multitasking right now? not that multitalented =P

61. Do you like Britany Spears? used to till she broke ma heart ;_;

62. What is your least favorite chore? waking up and doing ppls side work at work almost always!

63. Last place you drove your car? here and to walgreens

64. Ever been out of the country? yup good times

65. Where were you born? Lester Naval Hospital, Okinawa Japan!

66. Could you handle being in the military? i kinda was but nothing too serious

67. What is your average cell phone bill? my part is like 40ish?

68. Who are you thinking about right now? co-workers lil sister i really hope shes alright ;_;

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard? back at Jons party seeing Jake wrestle Chris rofl

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own? like 5 or 7? i am a packrat, what can i say?

71. Are your toes always painted? only the color of my heart! TOTALLY jk! lulz

72. How many piercings do you have? i've had one put its sealed yet again ;o;

73. What are you doing today? goin to emis kick back

74. Have you ever been gambling? course and i am pretty lucky sometimes too

75. When is the last time you updated your page? the other day

76. Do you like rollercoasters? hellz yeah!

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world? mhm good times too

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character? Ben 10! =P

79. Last thing you cooked? hot dogs and taters

80. How's the weather? nice and cool

81. Do you e-mail? sometimes

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? lent it to a friend who had just puked in his hands ;3;

83. Last time you were sick? back in march when i got the flu and had hella bad alergies

84. What states have you lived in? quite a few actually

85. Do you wish you could move? yup and that dream is gonna happen in January ;)

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes? nope

87. What is your dream car? Deloriene! 88 miles an hour! *_*

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have? of course

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be? where ma dream girl maybe ^_^

90. Are you happy with your life? i am happy with the direction its going XD

Haven't really written much lately about whats new so I figured I'd go ahead and write a quickey. Whats new is I got new hours at work working from Friday-Monday, Sunday and Monday nights, and Friday and Saturday mornings. Not too bad considering I thought I was gonna get 3 days only. Boss James pulled a life saver on me.

Works going kinda bleh since I'm not working with the best anymore. Suppose to be out by 3pm on Saturdays but I get off close to 5 now because I have to clean up my co-workers messes and do their side work. Kinda pist right now actually seeing how the swing server was getting on me for the other servers job. Plus, lame ass lazy busser just isn't cutting it at all. Gonna talk to my boss about getting Ian hired asap.

Me, Felix, and Ryan are looking into apartments and we've found a good one it looks like. 1040 for a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom which is just perfect for 3 single guys. I make about 1500+ a month, Ryan makes 1600, and Felix makes about maybe 1000-1100 so its just enough for him to get by. Might even look into renting a house. Not sure but we are planning to move out by January when Ryans lease is up. Hopefully it all works out. We'll see.

Aside from that, nata much else. How you guys doing?

I had loads and I mean LOADS of fun tonight at Jons party. More fun then I've had for quite a while actually. Thing is, for those of you who were there, I obviously knew what you were thinking. "What the hell is Kai doing watching a drunk girl for when she's just gonna move onto some other guy?" Truth be told, I dunno. Whenever I feel the "Right Thing" come to my mind, I always think of what my Dad said back when I was like 6 or 7. He told me: "Chris. Theres alot of bad people in this world. Try to be different and be someone good." I wasn't the greatest guy tonight by ANY means what so ever by making out with this girl who's married even though shes in an "Open Relationship" which is still no excuse. She told me she wanted me to watch out after her and I did hear some kind of fear in her voice. She def. did not wanna be around Simon and Sams friend and she thanked me and Pablo for getting her away from him. What I do doesn't make any sense by any means what so ever but to answer your question Jake "Not to put you on the spot", I do what I do cause I can and theres no one else out there with that power they themselves have that can use it, but choose not to. At the end of the night, I know her husband was thankful, but I looked like the bad guy torwards her friends seeing how she wanted to kiss me again which is understandable. But at the end of the night, whether or not she remembers what happened, I know in my lil lame ass heart that I did the right thing by watching out after her whether she gets f'd tommorow night, or next weekend. At least she didn't have to walk away with a regret tonight. Thats how I see it. Know that, thats me and that I'll always be like that. Whether I benefit from what I do or not, its not something I expect the whole world to see and thank me for. Like I said, tonight I wasn't the best and that kinda guilt I have to live with. Hopefully this explains a lil more about who I am guys. "Know that I just wanted to let you all know why I was the way I was." V. I can't say this enough but DYAM you looked mfing hot! GOTTA massage me with your bOObs on ma back again sometime. Rofl. Adios'so!

I bought a nice 2 seater 50cc Red Fly Scooter today and I got it for only 650. 700 with the helm. I was riding her around since like 4ish and MY GOD does it feel awsome. It feels great to actually get to where I wanna be without having to worry about asking for a ride or how I'm gonna get there, etc, etc. Hell. I could even ride this thing to p-town if I wanted to. ^o^ 100 miles to the gallon. Hehe. But now, I tierd so I sleep now and stuff. Before I nap nap, I came up with Zoom as a name for her. What chu think? Nightz.

Good news first. I've got this Sunday off. So I can def. spend time in Pahrump for BFF adventures. Bad news. Tonight I just found out that I'll be getting no more then 3 days a week at work as of October 6th. ;3;

My nets been down since like Monday which hath killed meh since I'm on this thing like day and night when I'm not at work. ;o; Wont be up running till either later today "Hopefully" or by tommorow. Right now I'm connected to a HELLA weak ass wifi signal just to check up on some stuff. Anywho, gonna be off the next 2 days so if anyone wants to hang, lemme know. I'll either be playing ma lame ass games or just sleeping for the most part. =P Hope you'z'a allz doing bombayz! Oh. ONE MORE THING! Tonights special is half baked chicken night if anyone wants to swing by? Half baked awsomeness if you ask me and for only 5.99!??? No way!!!..... I'm bored. Chow! Lol.

Buddy Kevin just called and told me he won tickets to a thing and ivited me to go with em next weekend. What is this thing? STRIPPER AND HUSTLERS BALL BABY!!!!!!!! Rofl. So very random that he invited me and now I'm all excited. =3 Anybody wanna go with me to rent a pink or purple tux? LOL!

Things have been going surprisingly well for me lately actually. Finally got my promotion as a server at my job sheduled to work weekends only but as of this week, I've been called in a few times. Monday as a busser, last night as a server where I cleared over $110 alone for a 6 hour shift. ^o^ I made 80 Saturdat morning, and almost 90ish Sunday morning which wasn't too bad. But def gonna look more forward to the night shift when that starts. As of right now I'm filling in for one of my co-workers who seems to be really sick so I might work for her the rest of the week which includes tonight, tommorow and Saturday night which I may just end up pulling a double. No stress off my back there cause thats easily over $200 cash on Saturday alone! XD Things are finally turning around for me.

Anywho, I know some of you are gonna start going back to school pretty soon so hows this for an ideaz? Volleyball grill out and centenial volleyball court mehbe this Sunday or sometime next week? One last huge get together before things go banana's ya? Besides, I hella mfing miss you all! Lemme know when your all free and I'll put together a date. Hope everyones doing well!